This is the post I have dreaded the most. (Yes, I am a poet and didn't know it.)
Pity Party Time!!!
You know everyone loves to throw themselves a good pity party! Heck I bet Kim Kardashian has a pity party every time her face is not on the cover of a magazine. I bet that girl thinks "Woe is me! That magazine has my sister on the cover!! What am I ever going to do?! Sigh...Take me to McDonald's and get me a Happy Meal!".
Any-hoo, I have somewhat introduced myself in previous posts, but in this one, I will get to the nitty gritty.
My life was perfect. I was a happy newlywed blissfully in love renting a cheap house without a care in the world. Then my husband asks the biggie...no, not which type of frozen pizza tonight, pepperoni or sausage? It would be the sausage because we ate the pepperoni last night, but I digress. I am talking about the REAL biggie question...which also happens to come in a tiny package.
So we decided to buy a house move closer to his job and maybe start a family in a year or two. You know, once everything gets settled in our new house. Ten months later, I have a 9 pound 2 ounce little boy. Then, a year and half later, a very vocal little sister was born.
Within two years, I quit my job, get another job, buy a house, have two babies, gain and loose almost a HUNDRED pounds, quit my new job and get a different job...and guess what?!! The real fun has not even started yet. If you thought that was crazy, you have no idea!
Both of my kids had colic so bad that I thought I was going to go insane. My son would scream nonstop sometimes 16-18 hours a day every day for the first 3 months of his life. Made me question if I wanted that kid much less more kids. So of course, I get pregnant while actively taking birth control. There I was at a new job, with a screaming kid, working nights while dealing with a difficult pregnancy which would produce another difficult screaming kid. Sigh...
Well, life started calming down. Things were actually going great...a little too great. Then on March 7th, the real nightmare happened. I was on my way to pick up my babies and a great song was on the radio. I was singing out loud and actually enjoying my horrible singing. Then without warning, I was upside down. My car had become a roller coaster of twisted metal that I was afraid would be the last ride I ever took.
If you have never been blind sided by another car and it causes you to loose all control, let me tell you it really is in slow motion like the movies. Everything slowed down like in the The Matrix. I could see the little things that were in my purse hanging out in mid air.
(After flipping 3 times, we went to the salvage yard to get my stuff out of the car, and my shoe was still on the break)My car flipped 3 times and landed upside down. The fear and anxiety that followed was almost unbearable. I actually wanted to become a hermit and never leave the house. I thought I was going insane.
Then a funny thing happened. I decided to do something for myself to make me happy. Since I like to sparkle like a disco ball, I decided to start painting my nails with glitter. Not just any glitter, I'm talking glitter so in your face that I- would-not-want-to-be-fishing-cuz-I-would-catch-friggin-Jaws-kida-glitt-A!!!
It really helped. I forced my friendship on bloggers and polish makers. I basically gave them no option. Get over it, you will love me, or I will bug you till you do just give up and accept that I'm not going anywhere.
Then, the unthinkable happened again on August 14th. I was on the same highway going to pick up my baby. A lady tried to go across the same intersection without looking and I don't have to tell you what happened.
While I am ok, in the past five months I have had 2 totaled cars, 2 concussions, bruised ribs, chest contusion and a very unattractive thumb.
I know this post is long but I am getting to my point, just hang with me.
Through everything I have been through, a huge amount of support and comfort has come from people in the polish community. It really touched my heart by the out pouring of love from people I have never actually met. Thank you so much for just being there to listen to me.
So tonight, I used my rewards at llarowe.com to purchase a special Crows Toes polish so perfectly named "Storms Never Last." (http://www.llarowe.com/products/Storms-Never-Last.html)Then, I took a hot bath, slathered on my special discontinued BBW lotion "Hawaii Coconut", and sprayed every inch of me with my absolute favorite discontinued perfume "Victoria's Secret Breathless". (Trust me, I have been hoarding these scents for Brad Pitt coming for dinner because they smell THAT sexy.) Then, I take my tired, bruised, sexy smelling self to bed.
I wish you sweet dreams dear reader. It's nice knowing that even though I will most likely still wake up tired and definitely bruised, I am just happy to wake up :)
With All My Love Sparkle On Reader,
Licia
Owie thumb, but hey, like you say - YAY for waking up! Sparkle on, you've overcome great obsticles and are still smiling. I call that a huge win.
ReplyDeleteReading that I really feel like your friend already, what an amazing story. Us women really are so resilient and strong and overcome so much! You are so positive too! Thank you so much for sharing!
ReplyDeleteWhat a wild ride! You've a rough year & I have no idea if I could have such a positive attitude. i wish you all the glitter in the world!
ReplyDeleteWhat a crazy year! Stay safe lady!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. I rather smile than cry ;) Isn't that a sign of insanity? Lol!!
ReplyDeleteThank you! I'm glad my writing can connect to someone. When you are in the middle of a storm, you forget everybody else is dealing with a little rain too, but it taks a little rain to make a rainbow ;)
ReplyDeleteThank you! If I had all the glitter in the world, I would be happy to share some with you ;)
ReplyDeleteI told my hubby the next vehicle I get newds to be a big yellow school bus! :D
ReplyDeletethis sounds like a tough year but remember you will only become stronger. i wish you and your family the best. (:
ReplyDeleteThat thumb is just what every polish blogger needs ;)
ReplyDeleteAnd please ignore spelling and any other errors. I was still woozy from the concussion ;)
ReplyDeleteIt has been tough for you, but it can only get better, right? Sending love your way. Even with your busy schedule you still manage to do the blog we love. Keep on shining, sweetie!
ReplyDeleteThank you. If that saying is true, I might be strong enough for the WWE ;) lol
ReplyDeleteIt has been tough but my babies were not hurt and they still have their kooky moma :)
Thank you so much! The polish community has been so compassionate and really touched my heart through this time in my life. I can not tell you how much I appreciate that you enjoy reading my posts :)
ReplyDeleteAlicia, you rock! You are stronger than you realize. Anyone that can not only live through the last few years, but thrive during them, deserves a medal. So, here's to you! ♥♥
ReplyDeleteAw, Sweetie! You are one tough lady - taking everything the Universe has to throw at you and continuing to march! Keep on keepin' on!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! Could you imagine a medal of glitter?! My little brain would explode! :D
ReplyDeleteThank you! Obviously the Univers doesn't know who it's dealing with ;) lol
ReplyDeleteThanks bunches!
Wow!!! So glad you're safe and sound. Hope you recover quickly.
ReplyDeleteWhat horrible luck. Glad you're still alive and safe! xx
ReplyDeleteThank you! Working in a hospital, sometimes I come face to face with people who have been seriously hurt in car accidents. I am blessed to be alive and kickin ;)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! I bet my hubby wants be to recover quickly too ;) The kids are wearing him out! Bwahahaha
ReplyDeleteWow! WOW!! My goodness woman, the SAME intersection 5 months later?? That is INSANE!! I'm so sorry these horrible accidents happened to you! You are amazingly strong! Best wishes with your recovery and safety in the future!!
ReplyDeleteAnd I thought I was bad totalling both cars I've ever had within 10 years!
Haha!! I'm sure he does.
ReplyDeleteWhen it happened the second time, I had no idea where I was. When my sister in law came to the scence, people were being very um, unpleasant in telling me to calm down. My sister in law told the paramedic "Don't you tell her to calm down! Somebody else hit her in March at this exact same spot! She has a right to freak out!" Lol!!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad to have been tree to help you. I heard it from my house and ran down the road and saw you sitting in the grass. I said honey are you alright let's sit on the concrete for these ants don't get you. I still remember what you were wearing and that look on your face: green shirt, jeans, messy bun, with a blue tongue from skittles thankfully. I will never forget that day or you. I'm glad I could be there for you the entire time. My boyfriend who deployed 4 days before got to come home for two days and drove up and helped the people in the pickup truck. I'm glad I could help and keep you calm for a little bit. Your family was so nice and actually knew my grandmother the late Eloise Bishop. I'm glad I made a little bit of a difference! Love you girl!
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